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[May. 21st, 2007|05:31 pm] |
I don't think I could have asked for a better night.
You're amazing.
What a year... |
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[Aug. 1st, 2006|10:47 pm] |
You're real confusing...but it's kinda cute sometimes.
...I think that's the first time I've ever said someone being confusing was cute...You must be pretty special. Hehe oh my.
Summer is going by too fast. It's been a good one so far. For the most part anyway. I kinda hit a rough patch in the middle when I hated everything, but it's all good now, everything is better.
:-) Actually, everything is going really good right now...but I'm going to New York tomorrow, which will be fun, but I feel like I always go away on vacation (well, kinda vacation...aka college visiting) right when good things are happening to me here. It's weird.
I'm excited for next year, but at the same time I'm scared to death. Some days I feel really ready and somedays I feel like I won't make it past the first week of school. I scheduled my first college auditions today. February 3 and 4 2007. Scary. I know next year is gonna be so fun, but at the same time it's gonna be stressful and awful. But I'll deal with that when it comes.
I have so much summer AP work to do. Gross.
Bed time...I have to get up at like 5 tomorrow. |
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[Jul. 21st, 2006|11:50 pm] |
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You know you have good friends when one of the worst days of your life turns into one of the best nights of your life. Thanks guys. :-) |
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[Jul. 16th, 2006|09:12 pm] |
There are certain times in your life that are turning poins. Sometimes you know it and sometimes you don't. I think right now is one of those moments for me. Or at least, I can feel it coming. In a few weeks, one of the things that has been really important in my life for a long time now will be gone, and that's obviously gonna change a few things. But, I think it is finally time for this change to happen. It's weird...I've never been good with changes, goodbyes, moving on. But I think I am this time. It's not that I want this change to happen...God knows the last few months have been some of the happiest of my life. It's more like...I know I'm gonna be okay when this turning point comes, and that's a new feeling for me. Hmmm. But I've held onto this thing for a long time, and I feel like I should have let go a long time ago. And now I finally am starting to, and I think everything is gonna be fine. I'm gonna be fine. Yeah it's sad, yeah it's hard, but that's the way things go. And it's kinda exciting to see what can happen now, without this. There are always gonna be turing points in your life, some good, some bad. This one is both. But I think it's easier if you just accept that it happens, and then go on...but never lose your memories. I definitely have a lot of those-a lot of real good ones- and I always will.
Hmmm...I think I like writing in this thing...cuz there are certain times where I just wanna say something, but not to anyone in particular, and I don't feel like explaining the really long complicated thing, so this way, I can jsut say it and I know someone's read it, and they may or may not understand it, but that doesn't matter. I just need to say it somewhere. Yeah.
Life is good right now. |
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[Jul. 13th, 2006|12:43 am] |
Kinda annoyed that I'm still up. I just lay in bed for like 2 hours and couldn't sleep...so here I am. Yeah. Hmmm, well Godspell opens Friday, come see it if you feel like it. Not only am I in it, but I also was the costume designer, so you can see my wonderful costuming skills (yes because clearly I know so much about costumes. Right.)Oh man.
This is probably gonna be one of those entries that I leave for a day then delete. I've been doing that a lot lately. But anyway...I've been feeling kinda insecure about my singing lately. I've always thought of myself as an actress who sings as opposed to a "singer" if that makes sense. And sometimes I just feel like my voice doesn't measure up sometimes. And it's frustrating cuz I can't belt as well as I'd like to and I know it doesn't happen over night, but I've been working on it for a long time now and i don't feel like it's gotten much better. Blahhh...and just everything in general. But I had a conversation with someone about it today and he made me feel better and helped and stuff.
K, enough about that...my life is weird lately. I don't really know what to think of it. I'm very up and down, and I keep getting in off moods that I can't shake. And also, it's like...I know what I want, and I can see it, and I'm so close to getting it, but not quite, and I can't figure out how to actually get it. But overall, things are good. I think. |
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[Jun. 14th, 2006|03:08 pm] |
Random update cuz I don't feel like studying for finals....
It's a weird feeling when you realized you've ended a chapter in your life...I'm always looking at waht is happening now, and I'm always looking towards the future, but I rarely look back. Then, when I do, I realize that certain parts of my life are over and done and I can never get them back. But then I want them back. I want them back for the sole reason that I can't get them back. Does that make sense?
It's just weird cuz like...I won't be at MSSA this summer, I'm not doing the CYT summer show, and I haven't done a show at CYT since Sweet Charity...and I kinda feel like that whole chapter of my life is done. And I don't like that...and I don't wanna lose all the people that came along with that, cuz it was all so important for so long. I dunno, it's a weird feeling.
I get too wrapped up in the here and now, and I forget to think about other things that are important before it's too late and they're gone. Hmmm. |
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[Apr. 22nd, 2006|03:01 pm] |
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Hello everybody! Time for some shameless advertising!! (Sorry!)
Westford Academy Theater Arts Presents:
The Comedy of Errors
by William Shakespeare
Directed by Dr. Luke Jorgensen
April 27, 28, and 29 at 7:30pm
At Westford Academy (30 Patten Rd)
Tickets: $12 Adults, $7 Students
Come see it! It's funny, I promise! And I'm a "saucy maid" so that's reason enough! Hehe.
I have tickets if anyone wants them! Yay!
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[Apr. 19th, 2006|11:21 pm] |
Oh my oh my-it's vacation! yay! hehe...spent the first part of it college visiting. The second half will be rehearsals and stuff. Yup yup.
So colleges...I kinda just need to sort out in my head what I like and don't like and stuff. Don't read it, it will bore you. But anyway...
Oh man, that was longer than I planned. And now I'm sleepy. Comedy goes up wicked soon (**come see it, I have to sell 30 tickets**)...AP history exam is way soon (May 5) SATs are way soon (May 6) and Cotillion is May 6 too. Oh my. The year is almost over!! Which is both very good and exciting and very sad. Hehe. Ok bed time now! Night!! |
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[Mar. 27th, 2006|04:52 pm] |
Today I was driving alone in my car, belting along to the radio, and the sun was shining, and I could feel how warm it was through the windows, and everything just looked so beautiful. And all of a sudden I relaized how happy I was in that simple little moment right then and there-singing and driving and feeling the warm sun and just taking everything in.
And then I smiled, and realized I'm feeling like that a lot lately. Just happy to be where I am in that moment, doing what I'm doing in that specific moment. And I realized how happy I am just to live life right now.
And let me tell you-it's about time...
...Funny how little things like driving and singing and the sun can make your day so good. |
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[Mar. 23rd, 2006|03:14 pm] |
One more less thing to worry about. :-) no more stress hehe
anwyas, washington DC was amazing. i had such a good time, and i might the nicest people EVER. hehe. im glad i went, it was a good experience.
Overall life is good right now. Lots of good things have happened the past few weeks (Comedy of Errors, Honors Choir, Washington, everything in general), and even though some things are still not perfect and are kinda confusing, i'm realizing that its ok. And I'm realizing that the timing is just not right now for some things and that that's ok. Because other things are good, and if the timing just doesnt work, it doesnt work. But basically, Im happy with my life right now. And I dont think I've been able to say that for a long time.
So, Bertucci's messed up my schedule so I'm not working Saturday, so I get to go see the talent show! Who wants to come with me?! Hehe, and I think sunday I'm going to see Charlie Brown.
Right now the rest of the school year looks like its gonan be good-which is pretty sick since the middle of it pretty much sucked. So hopefully nothing horrible happens to ruin the rest of my year. Haha, keep your fingers crossed. :-) |
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[Mar. 10th, 2006|09:49 pm] |
Maybe things are starting to look up for me...
...in many areas. :-) hehe
I don't wanna leave for 6 days just when things are starting to happen! Bad timing to the max. Ah well... |
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[Feb. 26th, 2006|09:59 am] |
So I guess I'm working at Bertucci's all summer. Yeah...
On another note, Mexico was amazing. The place we stayed at was really resort-ish, and the beach it was on was really crowded, but the weather was really nice (80 and sunny every day) and the beach was still amazingly pretty. And it was really fun and good to get away for awhile.
And of course when we get home its 20 degrees, super windy, and snowing. Yes, wonderful.
But now I have like 5 thousand things to do and no time to do them. Bye!! |
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[Feb. 17th, 2006|10:17 pm] |
VACATION!!! AHH!!
hehe finally!!
Work was randomly fun tonight hehe...I guess cuz good/fun people were working. Hehe.
I've been really happy the past few days. Hehe
I'm going to Mexico tomorrow! Ah, I'm so excited!! hehe...speaking of which, I gotta go pack!!
This was the most pointless update ever. Knda like all my entries. Oh well, sometimes I just need my lj fix (I'm lame)
Have a good vacation everyone!! |
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[Jan. 28th, 2006|10:19 pm] |
Work was pretty good tonight. Minus the fact that we had a party of 13 come in. Ahhh. But it worked out ok. And Max wrote me another poem (he wrote me one last night too haha) they were pretty touching. hahaha. almost. oh bertuccis-it's pretty crazy...
Oh. and I love nice people. I really do. Most people are like wicked rude to me at work...especially the people that I tell them it's gonna be an hour wait and they come up after 15 mintues asking how much longer and then get mad at me. And then proceed to ask me every 10 minutes after that. Ugh. But then there's the occasional nice person, and they make me really happy. Like tonight, this one guy, after i gave them their table was like "Everyone's giving you a really hard time, but I think you're doing a great job! So I told the manager I thought you should get a break!" and I was like "oh thank you!" and hes like "oh no-thank YOU!" hehe.
yah that was my story hehe. theres just so many people that are rude to me (and its not like I did something to deserve it. it's not my fault that there are no open tables. and it's not like i told them it would be 15 minutes and it was 45. I tell them it will be 45 and it is 45. or even 40. ahhh) and its just nice when someone isn't mean or annoyed for no reason lol. |
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[Jan. 22nd, 2006|04:33 pm] |
Owwww I just tripped on my shoes that were sitting in my room and did something weird to my knee...it really hurts...
Anyway, semi was overall a good time. it wasn't the best dance i've ever been to, but it was still pretty fun. and plus, I totally saw Luke Perkins there and I was like 'whoa! luke perkins is at my school! crazy!" hehe yah it was pretty exciting.
ah i hate confusing people! hehe ok sorry...
i should really be doing my homework right now, but i cant concentrate on anything....oh goodness, im so random right now! this is the msot pointless entry ever...
and my knee still hurts. what the heck...oh well, im gonna go hehe bye! |
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[Jan. 18th, 2006|04:15 pm] |
An update! Oh my!
So....today, I'm driving to Bertucci's to check my schedule for this weekend, and it's pouring rain. So then all of a sudden my windshield wipers start spazzing out. One stops working all together, just stops moving (the one on the passenger side) and then the other one starts going absolutely CRAZY. It's going off my windshield and hitting my rear view mirror on the drivers side, and then just gets stuck there. So pretty much I'm like oh shit. Cuz I can't see ANYTHING. But somehow I managed to find a place to pull over, and call my mom at work. Luckily, my dad happened to come home from work early, and was home, so he came and used some pliers or something to tighten/losen some things on the wipers and then work fine.
Wtf. That's the second time my windshield wipers have broken in the middle of a downpour. What is my life?!
PS. Anyone that takes spanish at WA(the only people that will understand this)-according to TRL, justin timberlake is opening a restaurant(or something) called DESTINOS. Hahaha. ok, well i was amused... |
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[Dec. 12th, 2005|10:31 pm] |
I feel so disconnected from everything and everyone. Especially everyone.
I dunno what happened. Or why it happened. I'm just very...disconnected... |
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[Nov. 23rd, 2005|12:06 pm] |
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I think it might be time to give up my dream... |
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[Nov. 22nd, 2005|05:45 pm] |
So cry havoc callbacks...yeah about that...so i got called back, and like 60 something people auditioned, which is ya know, great, but 32 people got called back for 12 parts. super. and everyone was like way good, so im wicked nervous, and pretty much accepted the fact that im not getting in. cuz like...i did okay at callbacks...i mean, it was an acceptable performance, there was nothing wrong with it...it just wasnt my best. and i felt like since there were SO MANY GOOD PEOPLE that i really had to step it up and be better than my best. and i dont think i did that. which kinda sucks, but whatev...
sorry to whine haha, i just hate not doing my best, and i just needed to get it out and vent SOMEWHERE...but anyways, good job to everyone there and good luck!! |
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